I am a loon.....So the intrepid writer sat in front of the artificial lit computer screen, typing out character after character, poetry flowing through her taps and spaces...A static image of a doodled fish blinked at the above. ...So the hack writer chewed nervously on her tongue, starting mindless at the white screen, wondering how she yet again ended up in Angstville.The doodled fish gave the above a baleful look and swam off the green notecard it had been scribbled on. A Chibi!suit of armor took its' place....and the hack writer looked nervously at the Chibi! Armor and used the cut/paste function....Ed gazed calmly at Alphonse through the glass. "No, you don't understand, brother. You sacrificed so much of yourself for me, for so many years. Then I try to give you what you deserve for once and... well... you're a fish!" Edward gave a distinct shrug, moving his mouth soundlessly. Alphonse squinted, struggling to lipread. "It's...not...your...fault.""But it is, brother."-What makes you so sure?-"Because the Gate used my wishes against me."-It's a cruel bastard. It's not your fault.-"You don't understand, brother, I wanted you..."Chibi! Armor blushes in a shade of penciled gray and makes a X.x face. Hack writer shrugs and is glad she did not paste any additional attempts from this prewrite. Chibi! Armor suddenly makes room on the green notecard for the before mentioned doodle fish. Doodle fish blinks at hack writer. Resigning her fate, hack writer uses the cut/paste function on another prewrite. It was too much, really... or was it enough? He bit his lower lip, gasp turning into a grunt. Anti-animal rights activists would be having fucking field day. His knees threatened to give out as the torture continued. Rough hands, holding him, cupping just there, but not moving. "You have to tell me what you want, Alphonse." "I...want you." He could feel the knowing smirk that formed, the butterfly soft kisses on the back of his neck. "I can see that. Tell me exactly how." "Shut...shut up..." The touch was suddenly gone, hands around him fell useless. "No, no, touch me, please!" He inwardly grimaced, realizing to even his ears the quiet plea sounded pathetic. But the hands obligated, returning lightly, stroking downward. "Harder..." The smirk returned and one hand moved to cup him, while the other followed his request. The pressure increased with the intensity as he found himself sinking to the floor. He grunted in dull pain when his right knee connected to the hard floorboards but didn't dare curl forward. It was nothing compared to his other, more immediate ache. "Faster... more...more..." His body moved towards the floor. "No!" He felt a yank backwards,The green notecard's backdrop takes on a distinctive shade of stormy dark gray, accompanying the Doodle fish's addition in fangs. The pupils from his eyes are missing, and Chibi! Armor seems to be struggling for a technique to restrain Doodle fish without touching his scales. Hack writer is rather glad that paper is only 2-D. She also resolves to revisit the grammar book on the matter of passive voice, rogue comma use, and simple sentences. She bids the inhabitants of green notecard goodnight.

"Oh, how I do love checklists!" Not exactly a check list, but perhaps I should keep track of the (silly) stuff I've attempted and look at it before I start another....*edit after compiling this list, I'm starting to think I *am* quite allergic to seriousness when it comes towards my fanfiction scribbling..Fullmetal Alchemist:FMA AU Fish/L&O SVU crossover - current Hagaren the Musical - ideaObligatory Mary Sue Insert Parody- complete- All 6 of themVote Elric/Mustang- idea (see title)FMA Pairing Machine prompt- complete (cheated)General summary of fandom writing- silly, inane stuff. Seems to be allergic to angst.La Femme Nikita:OC Section Four Femslash- working on itJasmine/Claire- promptEros/Psyche- ideaGeneral summary of fandom writing- femslash.Gatchaman:Eagle Ken as "Birdman: Attorney at Law"- prompt completeGeneral summary of fandom writing- silly as well"Original" backdated stuff-Sci-fic wannabe nineties written universe extremely poor- outlined, never to be visited again.When I use to dabble in writing, I had no idea where I was going and would attempt to make up the story as it goes. These days I focus in where I'm going so I won't find myself in a corner when writing. For instance, if someone were to ask me "Do you know how the story ends", I can answer truthfully. It's the middle that needs extreme fleshing out. I imagine the process to be a large hunk of clay, patiently awaiting its next form. It is up to the writer and artist to decide what to do with it. Any and all pokes at the metaphorical clay can be seen as progress, though not to equal degrees. And *sigh* yes, the much maligned Mary Sue of fandom is too a piece of work, though like art itself may not be to the taste of everyone. The same of "smut" and "porn", fandom is what someone makes of it. This is also why when I am asked to give opinions, I tend to keep it constructive. Anyone can come up to a canvas covered in blue paint with a scarlet dot in the middle, and scream, "my seven year old can paint better than that/ I don't get it/ it's a waste of space!" Opinion yes, but since someone took the time and effort to make something, doesn't it deserve a nice word or too? The same goes for fandom- if someone puts a warning x/y is paired up in this scenario, don't read it if you're going to scream, "OMG you are sick!" which leads to flame wars and much mockery. Flame wars also originate when the victim lashes back- causing the flames to grow. ...so what am I trying to say exactly? Honestly, I'm not sure how this turned into a fandom lecture. I will have to add another tag. Anyhow, as someone who reads fanfiction and is (currently) a writer of fanfiction, here are five rules I will go by~1. Take and offer constructive criticism2. If something is not to my liking- "I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it."3. Beta, edit, edit, edit, before declaring a work done4. Be aptly knowledgeable when writing a particular fandom5. Know where "it" is going (if character X finds himself in Y situation, how will character T react?)

Bad poetry- thought you'd like to mock! :P Dedicated to all those pulling out there- remember folks, "after all...tomorrow is another day!" Evil unbeholden within a shining screenEveryday destroying while creating few dreamsInfinite conundrums hidden in its meansMind twisting protests accumulate to silent screamsRiddles run sideways, on foreheads- sweat beads glistenClicks and taps resound off small stationsCurses abound, frustration increases, but no one to listenScratch paper torn, hair mussed, nail etched palms suffering lacerations To whom or what I owe this inspiration I dare not speakMuch money has been spent to combat feverishlyQuestions I encounter I may not leakLess than a week comes the dreaded _ _ _!

"romantic, classic, dramatic anime with just a little sex." I can't believe I watched it. No, make that I can't believe I watched two and a half parts and kept expecting it to get better. If an extremely rushed and questionable "softcore" is to your liking, I give you "Fencer of Minerva". The real Minerva would be highly offended and spear the maker through the chest for gross misuse of her name. And here be spoilers for the series (only 2.5 out of 5, I couldn't watch anymore after half way through 3rd)The drama starts out all right- A coup d'tat is intercut with a cute little boy and girl discussing possible future careers while eating an apple. Boy asks girl to be future servant- surprise, surprise, girl protests, "I want to become a princess!" The king (boy's father is murdered) while bad soldiers go after the little prince. Poor kids first think it's all because of stealing an apple from a tree. Prince is cut to the face and falls backwards off a cliff. "Sho!" screams his childhood sweetheart. ----->fast forward 8+ years....Diana (sweetheart) is now a princess (her dad led the coup d'tat) in a society filled with scantily clad slaves. (Eh, I guess so). Sho survived and is currently plotting revenge. In a runaway attempt from an arranged marriage to bleach-white guy (guess the main bad guy!), Diana is enslaved by a bunch of nomads (who whip, compete to be her master, and have her sexually trained by mean slaves- included is a young virgin Diana tried to save) Actually, after Sho guts one bad-mouthing nomad, we find out these nomads aren't that bad. I mean, "we're giving you the attitude filled slave to use. That, and we'll help you take back the kingdom"- and Diana swears herself forever slave to Sho in the end though he declares her freedom. She'd rather DIE than be "free" from Sho. Analysis overall- "romance" drama started all right, then became this harem filled rush job plot screwy. The slavery thing I didn't mind, until it started becoming apparent that there were no male slaves, and every woman in the series besides Diana and her powerless mother was a slave (or- as I later discovered via web- secretly wants to become a slave. It's their hearts' desire. And if a woman has power, she hates female slaves (no, it isn't due to class warfare) -> before wishing to become a slave herself- males on the other hand are good in the heart- except those who completely violate Diana. I don't know- I guess I could see that Diana was a sub at heart, but EVERY woman? EVERY slave is extremely happy though their master could be a prick in bed? (Well, love IS blind...I take that back- of course all the women in this series are beautiful) Which is when I stopped watching during the third episode. Ah well- I should have checked up more before watching this "classic" H anime. There probably is good softcore H out there with submissive themes (not that I know any). In the ultimate end Diana becomes an inspiration to all "free" women to become "slaves" to their men. Happy ending, all the way around. :P

...from making bad fan music videos aka just plain bad ideasFullmetal Alchemist-semi-serious character piece~ Scar to "The Wanderer" -U2/performed by Johnny Cashsilly "shipping" piece~ Winry and Ed to "A Little Respect" -Erasure I went out walking (op. seq)Through streets paved with gold (street/ aging effect)Lifted some stones Saw the skin and bones Of a city without a soul (pan down city underground/creditless final op?)I went out walking (walking back shot)Under an atomic sky (sky explodes- Lior)Where the ground won't turn (cont)And the rain it burns (cont)Like the tears when I said goodbye (final seq./while talking to Lust)Yeah I went with nothing Nothing but the thought of you (Scar's brother's fiance...)I went wandering I went drifting Through the capitals of tin Where men can't walk (soldier missing limb)Or freely talk (Marcoh's arrest)And sons turn their fathers in (Furher's son)I stopped outside a church house (outside of church featured in final episodes)Where the citizens like to sit They say they want the kingdom But they don't want God in it (Dante's smirk)I went out riding Down that old eight lane I passed by a thousand signs Looking for my own name (Scar in Central with shades)I went with nothing But the thought you'd be there too Looking for you (Scar's brother)~sequence of gaining the arm and scar~ instrumentalSPOKEN:I went out there In search of experience To taste and to touch And to feel as much (touches chimera)As a man can Before he repents (chimera remains on wall)I went out searching Looking for one good man (Edward's first meeting with Scar)A spirit who would not bend or break Who would sit at his father's right hand (Edward turns his back)I went out walking With a bible and a gun (clutching arm)The word of God lay heavy on my heart (arm with alchemic power)I was sure I was the one Now Jesus, don't you wait up (running towards array)Jesus, I'll be home soon Yeah I went out for the papers Told her I'd be back by noon (Lust says goodbye to Scar) Yeah I left with nothing (falls in array) But the thought you'd be there too Looking for you (array activates)Yeah I left with nothing Nothing but the thought of you (white fade out)I went wanderinginstrumental (insert movie's end here...)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFGCJQDrERs - is a GOOD example ofthe song's use..

or maybe a slice of fruit?
aka: old teeny bopper sci-fiction from long ago... cut into plainest elements/ why I don't write original stuff any longer (what's scary is that this piece has a lot more back stories that I won't go into *aw heck with it*)2040~Future!Earth: *cough, hack, too much pollution*mystery!person: We must evacuate! Or all of us will die!majority!Earthlings: *yawn*2043~Future!Earth: *BOOM* *DEAD*majority!Earthlings: Awwwww... SHIT! *DEAD*Space!Earthlings: Yay, we're not dead!*Spaceship lands on planet NEO*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~2055 A.D. ~NEO badmysteryperson: "Take over world!"*DESTROYS PLACES*Dreamsequence! Thunder girl: "Save the world!"Thunder girl: Okay!*FIGHT KICK ASS*shy girl: I'm a soldier too! But I don't wanna!mysterysoldier: Too bad!*KICK ASS MORESO*snotty girl: I'm a soldier too! and more powerful! Ha ha ha! I have fire!****shy girl with water powers: grrrThunder girl: whatever!mysterysoldier: Work together!government: Work for us!***four soldiers: Okay!badmysteryperson: DIE DIE DIE!!!mysterysoldier/queen: *DEAD!*3 soldiers: AW FUCK!*FIGHT BASH FIGHT*badmysteryperson: I'm not really a bad person!3 soldiers: Really?government: Opps! Need to kill you to cover up a conspiracy!badmysteryperson: *IS DEAD*3 soldiers: Not so fast!corrupt government leader/queen: Too bad! Leave now and you'll still get a good retirement plan!*FIGHT BONK CRASH*corrupt government leader/queen: Aw fuck!3 soldiers: What is the truth?!corrupt government leader/queen: "You can't handle the truth!"FLASHBACK SEQUENCE!!!~Space!Earthlings: Yay, we're not dead! *Spaceship lands on planet NEO*Neolings: Who are they?Space!Earthlings: We only are limited few, but we must survive!Neolings: Sure! We'll share!Space!Earthlings: Aw, hell no, we have to take it all!Neolings: ...*WAR HAPPENS* 2044Neoling male: You are hot Earth woman, I really like yousoldier!Earthling: I shouldn't like you, but I really do... other soldier Earthling: Hey, leave my friend alone....hello...* "SHORT" WAR ENDS*Neoling male: stay with me!soldierEarthling: No, we can't! *angst*Neoling male: Nooo! I'm secretly a charismatic political figure who holds a lot of power but I can't do anything without my true love...other soldier Earthling: Hello again!Neoling male: *sniff*other soldier Earthling: there there...*CHICKA-BOW-WOW*other soldier Earthling: oh no, what have I done to my friend! *angst*soldierEarthling: I'm back! I'm ready to be with you!Neoling male: Yay! Let's get married!*ONE YEAR LATER*soldierEarthling: Oh honey, great honeymoon!Neoling male: Yes! And I must answer this strange letter I have received... oh my! *leaves*soldierEarthling: Wait up you silly silly man!other soldier Earthling: HiNeoling male: I know the truth.other soldier Earthling's kid: *WAH!*soldierEarthling: *IS SHOCKED*Neoling male: Now honey, I can explain...*BLAM BLAM BLAM*Neoling male: ...Or not. *hurk* *IS DEAD*soldierEarthling: What have I done?! *angst overdrive* *runs away* *Becomes queen*other soldier Earthling: No!!! My family! *insane overdrive* *Becomes mysterybadperson* I'll get my revenge and take on the corrupt government! *runs away*Young Thunder girl: *Wah!* Mommy! I had a bad dream cool auntie and little baby cousin were killed!Young Thunder girl's mommy: Now now dear that didn't happen.... ^^;;;; 2045~mysterybadperson not really: I'll reveal the truth of Neo! I'll have inexplicable powers to take over the planet!corrupt government queen: I'll use Neo's inexplicable energy to fight you! (I'll just use single family kids to do it- when they die, they won't be mourned too much!)mysterybadperson not really: What was that?corrupt government queen: *Is really insane* Nothing! Be prepared!mysterybadperson not really: Bring it on!END SEQUENCEQueen: *DIES FOR REAL*3 soldiers: ...corrupt government ppl: On no!*KICK BASH BOOM*corrupt government ppl: *go to jail!*3 soldiers: Well, that's over with..yay! *part ways*Thunder girl no longer with powers: *goes to university*snotty girl no longer snotty: *becomes a pop idol*shy girl no longer shy: *moves and researches to become a marine biologist*THE END!...princess not really daughter: Mommy!!! *goes insane**** Back story #1GTF: Hi! We're a bunch of misfits grouped together to help defend our planet!Misha: Ignore me. I'm a brooding leader who really likes Jo but can't be with her due to our duties.Jo North: I'm a short haired tomboy who really likes Misha but won't tell him, we have to focus on our duties.Rayne: I'm a long haired blond who really likes Misha and teases him.Miguel: I'm an intern who really likes Rayne but she just ignores me.MiaMia: I'm a hyperactive teen who likes Miguel but he doesn't realize that I like him that way.*AFTER MUCH ANGST AND DRAMA, MISHA AND JO FINALLY KISS*Rayne: Nooo!!!Miguel: Aw, sweetie, that's alright...*RAYNE GOES INSANE*Miguel: Or not...come back my love!MiaMia: Wait for me!*GTF falls apart**AFTER MORE CRAZINESS, GTF DEFENDS THEIR TURF ONE LAST TIME*Jo: I'm dying...Misha hold me..Misha: I'm dying too...you won't go alone...*GTF TOWER GOES KA-BOOM*Rayne: *sniff*Miguel: *sniff* *hug*MiaMia: *sniff* *leaves***** BACK STORY #2Kasandra: Hi! I'm a random character that use to know Ann (snotty girl)Rosa: Hi! I'm a random character that faints crossing the street!*HONK CRASH*Rosa: Thank you for saving me! I think I like you! Let me thank you!Kasandra: You could help by footing my apt. bill?Rosa: Yay! *moves in*Kasandra: Okay!Rosa: I like you.Kasandra: I like you too!Rosa: No, I REALLY like you.Kasandra: Ah...uhh...*insert angsty unrequited shoujo ai here*Kasandra: I actually like Ann (though I haven't seen her in a long time)*insert angsty flashback unrequited shoujo ai here*Kasandra: Screw that thoughRosa: about time!*CHICKA-BOW-WOW*Kasandra: What have I done! ANNNNNNN!!! *runs away*Rosa: ;_; Rosa: >:( You'll pay!*MAYHEM HAPPENS*Rosa: *is a random goddess*Kasandra: *is brainwashed* *goes on killing spree*3 soldiers: We don't think so!*KICK POW CRUN-*snotty girl/Ann: Hold it! I know this girl!Kasandra: *Is unbrainwashed* Huh?Rosa: Hey! She's mine!snotty girl/Ann: You can't make people love you!2 soldiers: What does that have to do with anything?Kasandra: *angst shock!*Rosa: *angst shock!**GRAB SNATCH RUN*Kasandra: Dude, get the hell out. BTW, you're not really Rosa are you?Rosa: Right. You're not really Kasandra are you?Rosa: Goodbye Sandra Ross.Kasandra: Goodbye Gloria Asor.Sandra: *calls Ann*Ann: Hey Sandra! I'm getting married! Want to come to the wedding?Sandra: ...ELSEWHEREGloria: ...THE END!

because I wonder how my mind works
I wonder, as I browse the remaining fma djs scans I have (others gone due to stupidity, see previous posts) what makes me love the Ed and Al pairing the most? Why do I dislike the Roy and Edward pairing? What sort of strange tastes do I have for an Armstrong and Rose relationship~ same goes for an alter!Ed and alter!Al couple? I'd read a Roy and Hughes doujinshi, but scream at Hughes and Ed. *cut for now due to time limit, will continue later*

*and here there be a short rant*...I was eating dinner at a nice restaurant when at a nearby table a kid started to cry. The mother told the kid to "stop it, right now, damnit!" A few minutes later, the kid starts crying again, louder. The father picks up the kid and walks out the front door passing my table as I hear him say, "you've been nothing a piece of shit today!"My problem? The kid lookedabout two years old, no more than three. Where do kids learn bad language indeed... >.<

OTP meme bandwagon! Have you jumped on yet?
1. Pick your 5 favorite OTP'sMichael/Nikita ~ La Femme Nikita (1997)Joe Asakura/Jun ~ GatchamanRyo Saeba/Kaori Makimura ~ City HunterUtena/Anthy ~ Adolescence of UtenaEdward Elric/ Alphonse Elric ~ Fullmetal Alchemist(La Femme Nikita's the only show with live actors... ^^;; )2. Find pictures and post themhmmm...if I wanted to take bandwidth I would, but lets insert some pretend ones... *snip snip* *glue glue*3. Give the name of the OTP and what fandom they're fromack O.o...can't choose!4. List your favorite moment between themMichael/Nikita: "There'll be a day when...Adam won't need me anymore...""You'll know where to find me..." *tear tear* (insert "Immobile" here)Joe Asakura/Jun ~ Gatchaman"Joe..." *Jun hugs him, cries, Joe starts crying too* -Gatchaman IIRyo Saeba/Kaori Makimura ~ City HunterKaori brainwashed "Sara" can't bring herself to kill Ryo, Ryo saves the day and finally kisses her!Utena/Anthy ~ Adolescence of UtenaDance sequence, hands down.Edward Elric/ Alphonse Elric ~ Fullmetal Alchemist1. Al sucker punches Ed, starts lecturing him, and gets mad when his arm falls off.2.movie~really loud"Nii-san!!!!" *tear tear* (insert "Brothers" music here)

...in an attempt to gather all the fma doujinshi scans I gained from generous sources I decided to burn them onto a cd...(move to E: drive)...and then the errors... "cannot copy X folder" so first I tried "cancel"... but it seemed that the damage was done... then "skip" didn't work either....so I tried moving the original folder back......where has all the doujinshi gone? WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~ :'(
"Are you-""No doc! Not at all!" The female burst into overly dramatic tears. "My...my collection!!!" She yanked out tissue after tissue from the proffered box. "It...it" *HONK* "My F.M.A. doujinshi scan collection!!!"The doctor patiently waited for her to continue. "I tried to do what my dream said...move my collection to stop obsessing- but I...DIDN'T WANT TO LOSE IT!" She continued to wail, "It was my favorite F.M.A. collection too...from all those nice people! But they only had them up for a limited time and now they're gone! And I don't have enough to buy them in original form! Where did the doujinshi go?!"~~~~~~~Meanwhile, in a AU world... a short blond man is eating a banana while sitting on a beaten suitcase."Hmm?" He notices a picture on the ground...and suddenly another..and... He curiously gazes up as a bunch of jpgs fall from above. He catches one and examines it closely. Upon closer inspection he turns bright red, nearly chocking on fruit. "WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!" At the bottom of the certain picture is a long caption: C:\Documents and Settings\Owner\My Documents\FMA\DJS\Y\Elricest\aled2\12.jpg.He then starts frantically grabbing at pictures as they keep falling from the sky. "Damnit, I thought I told her to move them!"~~~~~EVEN ELSEWHERE..."Nee-san, I thought I was the only one who dumped files..." Windows ME-TAN gives a disapproving look to XP-TAN. "Sorry, but sometimes there is a limit to what I can take- no matter who the user is!"

note to self: if you're really thinking of finishing that fanfic, you're going to have to find a beta reader. and for someone's sake step away from the ed/al al/ed, hei/alter! ed too.

Dr. Alphonse Elric's Couch / "How the C.A.B*. Learned to Stop Obsessing/Guilt Tripping and Love FMA Fandom in a Healthy Way" x3In present time, Alphonse Elric, age 100 (or rather 97?) is in good health and retired. However, feeling the need for a change, decides to use a PhD gained many years ago to apply for a position in a college campus counseling center... his latest patient? A fangirl who claims sickness for obsessing over "the-coolest-anime-ever-with-two-hot-brothers-in-a-complicated-relationship". Will Dr. Elric be able to assist this c.a.b.?"So...you're saying you had a nightmare last night?""YES! NO! MAYBE! He was there! His brother was at a strange clinic, but he was really there!"sigh~~~~~~~Edward Elric otherwise known as the Fullmetal Alchemist, starred back at at the gaping author."You..you're..." He gave her a shrug of indifference."You see, I wasn't going to complain, you haven't made me do anything so far to really piss me off...but.."He held up what appeared to be a... banana?"Seriously. You want me and Al to-"The girl turned bright red and started backing away from him. "No, I swear! I would never make you do anything like that!" She eyed the banana with a horrified yet curious expression."-defend ourselves against pieces of fresh fruit? I think you've been watching too many comedy specials." The female in question stopped her retreat and reprocessed the remark."Ah...of course not...it was just a passing idea...""A 'passing idea'? Look, lady, I suddenly found myself in what appeared to be a pet shop trying to return my brother's armor body. What kind of ****** up idea is that?!""Er...""And of all people, Mustang? I kept insisting that he wasn't there anymore and the idiot kept poking the armor yelling 'hello'!""Well, you see, there are certain...""And then I was part of a chorus! Singing about lumber or something- I'm going to have nightmares about Armstrong wearing high heels...""Okay! Okay!" The author threw up her hands. "I'll admit I love to read fanfiction but I can't write to save my life. ...So to keep from skewering your character as well as others I thought imagining a bit wouldn't hurt..."*BONK* "Ow!" The author rubbed her abused head. "Why'd you hit me with a weight?""Sorry, you gave me the idea." Edward smirked. "Not bad for one lesson on fruit defense." He then gave her a serious look. "Thanks for trying to keep it pain free, but I think the only way I'll be able to get out of here as well as you to stop being part of the "obsessive fandom" is doing the same thing you did with your Tolkien (he paused to shudder) slash." "But I don't wanna move all my carefully collected fandom files from my comp-" She paused when the alchemist pulled a pineapple out of thin air. "-But...ah... (mythatlooksabitpainful) ...I'll try." Edward gave her a small smile. "That's all I wanted to hear. And when you're not losing seven hours of sleep each night feel free to come back."~~~~~~c.a.b. = crazy-ass *****To be concluded~

....for a time I'm been dabbling in different fandom, meeting those in the salt of the earth areas, the middle grounds, and of course the right down scary and indifferent sectors. I've always had that urge to write as well- but hid it because my ideas and writings just aren't exactly "user friendly" ^^. And right down grammar/structure murder <--- I just did it!But if I were to join FMA fanfiction, what terrible Mary Sueish fandom plot bunnies of AU would be found? Countdown...5. A strange political campaign in which the younger Elric runs for a public office of some sort, with Ed as a "people person" campaign manager versus the stylish and hot incumbent Roy Mustang. So who will win? ~Get your "Al's my pal" or "Mustang's the man" support buttons today!4. In present time, Alphonse Elric, age 100 (or rather 97?) is in good health and retired. However, feeling the need for a change, decides to use a PhD gained many years ago to apply for a position in a college campus counseling center... his latest patient? A fangirl who claims sickness for obsessing over "the-coolest-anime-ever-with-two-hot-brothers-in-a-complicated-relationship". Will Dr. Elric be able to assist this c.a.b.?3. OTP3 Ed/Winry/Al galore. 'nuf said.2. Heiderichest - mostly short lived angst...watch out for falling objects.1. Elricest...and nothing but Elricest - I didn't say it'd be well written though... - and then the wannabe fanfiction writer was killed by a killer plot bunny with enormous teeth. The end!

couch potatowarnings: previous randomness + more randomness, extreme pointlessness x 2, not-really-FMA AU. obssesions and now, a motto: improvement is always possible- therefore, edit, edit, and edit before distributing!
"So...how are you doing today?""*Whimper*"mental sigh"I'm sorry, I didn't quite-"wow, watch that eye twitch"DOCYOUNEEDTOGIVEMEMEDSRIGHTNOWRIGHTNOWI'MLOSINGTOOMUCHSLEEPBUTIT'SSOO ADDICTIVE AND ANGSTY/FLUFFY ANDIJUSTKEEPBROWSINGANDBROWSING-"guess that settles it"IT'SLIKETHETIMEIKILLEDTOLKIENBYREADINGSLASHANDIJUSTHAVETHATOTP, YOUKNOW-"that referral doesn't seem like a bad idea when I really think about it...~~~"Brother...I don't think we should have told our stories to that writer..."

inspiration from a certain archive maintainer's name... ~ yapapa yapapa."I was falsely accused of a hideous crime and sentenced to in life in prison. One night I was taken from my cell to a place called Section One, the most covert anti-terrorist group on the planet. Their ends are just, but their means are ruthless... or something like that.""La Femme Nikita 1/2" ...coming this May to a bad lj near you.Tag from "Birky Didn't Die...Yet"~Narrator: Nikita and Michael return from a mission in China with certain complications... (Close up on N's face): "Are you okay?"Narrator: ...is it another L virus?(Pan down shot of N and Mi leaving Section): M: "I...feel strange."Narrator: ...or something far more sinister?(Operations's disembodied voice): Walter...I want you to take care of the situation. (close up of Walter's expression of horror)(Get ready for it-> Big honkin' green text): Narrator: WHAT NEXT?La Femme Nikita...Sunday nights at 10...only on Fanfiction.net.

...When I was younger, I admit I entertained thoughts of various Mary Sues, all random, mostly terrible ideas... such as a love for the lonely Dirk Daring (aka Joe Asakura of Gatchaman)~Then I found it better and more attractive to ship~ whether it be Jun with Joe ('sides he's way cuter than Ken), Michael with Nikita (from the first episode)~Then one day I was reading fanfiction and came across a comment about a doujinshi/ fan-made comic where Ken became pregnant from Joe. ...And that's how I was introduced to shounen-ai~yaoi/slash, then shoujo-ai~yuri/femslash and from there I felt myself looking into a "new world". Good or bad? A world filled with blanket, hurt/comfort, non-canon, pwp fanfiction. (Not to mention, the ever expanding world of Mary Sue.) In general, fanfiction is the filler- answering the neverending what-ifs, what could have been, the (shudder) omg-what-if-I-was-a-lover-of-xyz... it may not be legal, but it can answer the questions and silence plot bunnies bouncing around in a potential writer's brain... or it can also contribute to unhealthy addictions, strange sleeping hours, and even stranger looks. ...But what do I know? I'm just a lurker who hopes LFN will come back in one form or another (DVDs of course, and maybe a cameo on 24), wants various animes to continue, and who can't say goodbye to fandom. Now excuse me, I have to chase away some plot bunnies who demand more femslash for LFN.

It's amazing how moods can change- such as I wanted to smile but almost found myself crying desperately to anyone in general today. They say writing your thoughts down can help with emotional outbursts so here I am. I find myself wanting to scream and constantly wonder if I'm just watching a film version of myself, nearly self-destructing. Wondering why I make certain motions, whether or not I'm the figure that wants to exit the stage. I don't know, I watched the second half of a film today- entitled "Between Two Worlds" like the tale of the journey between life and death. Who knows, maybe I just need to rewatch "Excel Saga" a couple of times and cheer myself up....On other things though, I don't think I'm as afraid of sparring anymore~ is it because I'm more willing to accept possible mishaps?*edit*...Now that didn't sound like Evangelion TV at all, did it?

LTMN is finally good for something. Tuned into the middle of "Mercy" tonight, though too tired to watch it. Started the vcr instead- though I've been trying to catch it for a while now. I am honestly getting sick of lifetime in general, with every movie turning out to have the same plot rehashed. Yes, I know "network for women", "drama for women" but for once I'd like something more lighthearted, instead of every movie turning out to be some angst ridden female, one heartless male, and one prince involved. And some more femslash please. I tuned into the part I believe after the seduction (darnit) - just killing ahead. However, since it has Peta Wilson, I guess I'll watch it later. (and I can't find listings for another showing...) On other slash, saw "Brokeback Mountain" two days ago... very good adaptation of the short story. I actually don't remember how it ended in the story, but the movie was alright. Friend who went with me kept asking questions, spoiling the mood in parts, but I guess some parts can be confusing. Her boyfriend (who decided to tag along) was silent afterwords while we discussed the movie... too uncomfortable a subject? Overall, great but predictably depressing. It seems like the majority of same-sex relationships in media end with one or both partners dying. :P. ...which reminds me, I wonder if they'll ever bring "Being Home With Claude" to cable..

birdman, indeed



Was bored actually didn't want to do work and started thinking of potential Gatchaman fiction to dabble...
came up with a big honkin' zero.

Nada. Zip. Zlich.

Then recalled something from previous web surfing- Gatchaman was
originally going to be "Birdman" but was changed at the last
moment. Thank goodness, especially since "Birdman" turned out to
be a H-B production with a very weak hero (loses power with no
sun? I guess he's the reverse of Batman? Except Batman has
no weakness to light?) reincarinated into an "attorney at law" in the
2000s. Briefly thought about Gatchaman/Ken as a lawyer, with
sarcastic assistant Joe. Didn't work, but somehow pictured Joe as
a janitor, Nambu as a innuendo laced boss, with rival Berg Katse in the
court... I guess Anderson could be the judge... hee hee hee....

Then thought about LFN in a court room. O.o Didn't work,
especially since everyone would probably be found "guilty until proven
innocent" and well...most likely those found guilty would then be sent
to a two year training period facility, and if passed would then become
a member of the most covert-

okay, enough of that. What else? Registered for ARD today
and saw all the lovely boards that I had been missing... though I'm
pretty sure I'll remain in lurkdom as long as I can. It's in my
nature.

love in the fall time Day started as "blah" and gradually turned into something more attractive- having two friends potentially getting boyfriends the same day. While I didn't take part in the matchmaking, it was quite nice seeing the scenarios play out. One is a shoe in, the other not so certain. But as a hopeless romantic I can dream... Love is a many splendored thing...? *edit* Well not quite. Both men were told to hold their horses before spring at least.